When they came to the crowd, a man came to him, knelt before him, and said, “Lord, have mercy on my son, for he is an epileptic and he suffers terribly; he often falls into the fire and often into the water. And I brought him to your disciples, but they could not cure him.” Jesus answered, “You faithless and perverse generation, how much longer must I be with you? How much longer must I put up with you? Bring him here to me.” And
Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of him, and the boy was cured instantly. Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, “Why could we not cast it out?” He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly I tell you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.”
New Revised Standard Version, copyright 1989, by the National Council of the Churches of Christ in the United States of America. Used by permission. All rights reserved. USCCB approved.
Overcoming fear and self-doubt
Stories of the disciples, the ones who knew Jesus so intimately and ministered alongside him, not getting it are rather comforting to me. It’s nice to know that I’m not alone when I don’t measure up to where I would like to be in my faith life! The disciples had seen Jesus perform miracles, why did they have “little faith?”
The disciples were likely afflicted with the same things you and I are: fear and self-doubt. Watching Jesus heal someone and believing that they were capable of it themselves are two different things. Talking about something and actually following through are different things. In many areas of my life, second-guessing what I am capable of is a full time hobby.
What is something in your life that you need to hand over to Christ and trust that he will accompany you through? How can you begin to have faith the size of a mustard seed?
—The Jesuit Prayer team
What you hold may you always hold.
What you do, may you always do and never abandon.
But with swift pace, light step and unswerving feet,
so that even your steps stir up no dust,
Go forward, the spirit of our God has called you.
—St. Clare of Assisi